This weekend was pretty fun. I did end up going to LOVE and I had a ball with my friends Laruen and Cherry. LOVE was celebrating Mardi Grass this Friday so they had beads and masks. It was nice. I didn't really make and effort to get sexy because it was really cold outside. I wore a black jacket, jeans and black boots. I thought I looked pretty blah, but it seems like ever time I wear that outfit I get a bunch of numbers. Anyway, I had about 2 1/2 drinks that night. I went to my favorite bartender who is very heavy handed to get my drinks so it was more like 5 drinks. The singer JOE was performing that night. I’m not really a JOE fan, but it was nice to be in the front row to see a performance. I dance for some hours, got some numbers and left around 2:30am. There are normally cops out side the club patrolling the area and as I was walking to the car one of the cops stop to talk to me. He said that we went to school together and he graduated a year after me. I really don't remember him at all. I asked him what his name was and it still didn't ring a bell. However, when I said my name he said I know. I was like wow this is kind of strange. He must have been really paying attention to me back in High School.
On Saturday I finally got the 4 tires for my car. After that I did some grocery shopping with Aries and called it a night. I didn’t see my old friend from High School because she was MIA. Her family has this business so she was doing that. I was kind of happy because I was pretty sleepy.
On Sunday I woke up to and awful surprise of snow. I had no idea it was going to snow. I don’t really watch the news so i had no idea. Funny thing was that I was about to spend the night over Aries house the night b4. I was like good thing I didn’t. That day I pretty much relaxed and did my hair. The Cop dude ended up calling me and said that he just drove down my street. I was like WHAT? No you didn't? His ass turned around and drove back up the street to show me that he did. That’s a bit strange. He kept asking me for my address, but I didn't tell him. I was like WTF?
I have been talking to him on the phone for a few days, but I’m not to sure about him. He has a few strikes against him. I’m not sure if that’s the typical "cop thing" that they do or what.
1st Freak Out: Drove down my street ( I guess to see where I lived and he kept asking me for my address, but I didn't tell him) on some stalker shit.
2nd Freak Out: Knew my first and last name and we weren't even in the same class. I’m 98 he was 99.
3rd Freak Out: Got his friend that works at my job to look me up in the address book here to find out my info.
I didn't really go into details about the last one. That just happened last night. He is bringing me lunch today, but he told me about that b4 he even asked to come up to my job. So I’m just going to meet him for lunch. I’m like, don't come to my job. My Sis asked me not to tell him her real name and I don’t' really blame her. She doesn’t think that its a good idea for me to talk to him, but am I overeating?
My friend Lauren dose her eye makeup so nicely. I always seem to do it the same way all the time and use plain browns or pinks. I asked her how did she learn how to do her makeup and she told me that she pretty much looked in magazines and practiced. So I have been looking on the Internet trying to finds some ideas and came across Formaldehydexbree on You Tube. I really like how she did her makeup, but I don't like the makeup on the bottom lid. Check her out.
1. Shape your eyebrows and apply eyeliner.
2. Select your Triple Split eye shadow or your choice of three matching eye shadow shades. Using the lightest shade cover the entire eyelid, from lash line to brow. Use a large flat eye shadow brush.
Eye makeup tip:The lighter shade applied to the brow bone will give the eyes and wide and open look.
3. Apply the medium shade on the lower lid from the lash line to the crease of your eye. Use a smaller eye shadow brush.
4. Use your darkest shade in the outer corners of the eyes, out to the crease. Intensify for a more dramatic night-time look. You can also use this shade as an eyeliner. Remember to blend the shades for a smooth overall effect. Again use a smaller eye shadow brush.
5. Apply mascara sparingly for a sophisticated daytime look. Apply two coats for a more dramatic night-time look.
I’m looking around for some swimsuits because I plan on going to Florida in May. These are some of my top picks. Tell me which one you like the most or should I keep looking?
I took that IMof me and James convo off of here because it was getting on my nerves to see it on my page. I really wasn't serious about that "don't be like that" crap that at all. That’s what he uses to say to me whenever I got mad about something and that’s why I was saying it to him. Right about now I feel like that doing Audrey Hepburn Gap Comercial . I really need a release. I'm going to LOVE tonight to dance and drink my ass off. I’m going back to the good old days tonight. I’m going out with my friend Lauren tonight. I'm not going to get pissy drunk, but I may be hugging the wall tonight.
I haven't been on myspace in a bit, but I was a bit curious to see if James had moved me down on his top list and sure nuff he did. I'm bumped down to like #10 or something from #3, but I don't care. However, I ended up getting a message from one of my good friends from High School. We lost touch because she went away to graduate school in Europe. Turns out her ass lives in Laurel, Maryland and that’s about 30 mins from me. It's been about 3 years since we last spoken to each other and we are going to hang out on Saturday.
BOY OH BOY!!! This weekend was not fun at all. I normally leave at 4:00pm during the work week, but I came to work late last Thursday. I decided to stay a late after work on Friday to make up the hour. Plus it was my coworkers last day so I want to talk to him for a bit. :-) (if you are reading this I really need to see you so you can fix my computer...Thanks...) but anyway after work I was so ready to go. I packed up my stuff so I can walk out of here at exactly 4:45. I wasn't bs'n. I had my coat on, purse in one hand and the mouse in the other to log out for the day on the computer. I do so and began to speed walk over the ice and monds of snow to my car thinking of all the seafood I was going to eat that night at Legal Seafood. I get to my car and I didn't bother to warm it up (I was so ready to go) and proceed to drive out of the garage. However, my car was favoring the right side and I’m like WTF is going on???!!! So I stop to see what was up with my car and guess what???!!! I had a freaking flat tire!!!!!!!! I was so mad. I don't have AAA and I have never changed my tire B4. So I call my bf to come change it for me. He came all the way to my job which was so nice. He was all the way in Georgetown and it took him about an hr to get to me. He was annoyed that he had to go thru the Police check point and had a lil attitude with me, but he changed my tire really fast. However, when he was done he was like “Well I have to go back to work and I guess we can go out to eat on Tuesday"... I’m like WHAT!!!!!... I was really looking forward to going out tonight. So I said, "WHAT!! What about Saturday? How are you just going to by pass the weekend? So he is like "Ummm... yea... I guess we can go on Saturday"... By this time I was pissed. So after that I just came home and went to sleep. James had called me on the way home to ask if I wanted to see him, but I just went to sleep. I didn’t get home until 7 something and all I wanted to do was rest. It was still snowy and I really didn't feel like seeing or talking to anyone.
On Saturday, I went to VA and did the whole photo shoot thing. It was nice. The pics came out nice, but I will see the finale cut probably next week. After that I went to Aries house and hung out for a bit b4 James called me again to see me. I know I said I was leaving him alone, but he popped back up. He asked me if his show got canceled then he wanted to see me tonight, but if it didn’t then we could hang out all day Sunday to do whatever I wanted to do. By this time it was 6:00 or so I was like ok we can meet up around 8:00. So 8:00pm rolls around and he calls me around 8:40 and is like he has to go to the show, but if I can see him later and I say sure if I’m still awake. 11:30pm rolls around and I'm driving home and he calls me back to say he is done and that he wants me to start coming his way. I went home first and then drove out to his house and fell asleep. The whole night all I was thinking why am I here. The whole time he is talking all kissy kissy to me. He is just so fake. So in the morning he gives me a cheap ass Valentines Card saying how much he likes me and he wants to grow with me. Whatever that’s some BS.
On Sunday, I went to lunch with my Sis, Aries and Sean. We went to The Dineragain in Addams Morgan. I had a good time. Later that day I decided to send Von a text cursing him out. I never really close that door. Yea he hung up on me last week, but that’s not how I wanted it to end. I said what I had to say and he says what he had to say and that was that. I told him to stop calling me, but he still dose. It’s not a lot, but I’m not answering his calls. The rest of the day I just chill in the house.
On Monday, I did nothing but chill in the house. I was thinking about James again about how I really need to end it with him. So I like I’m just going to wait to talk to him on IM so I can say what I have to say.
I was bored at work so I decided to look around at stuff and I came apon a palm reading quiz at--->Palm Readingit was pretty cool. I don't believe in all of this stuff, but it was fun to try. My reading is below. The Life Line A fork at the end of this line is a sign that you will pursue a completely new direction in life. This could mean a change of profession, partner or that you will move abroad... The Line of Venus A perforated Line of Venus is a sign of openness and generosity of heart. You are a sensitive soul and a great listener.
The Heart Line A Heart Line which starts on the Mount of Jupiter indicates an attraction to people who are intelligent and respected.
The Line of Apollo Those with a short Line of Apollo will only realise their career dreams through hard graft. Stop counting your lucky stars and get out there...Sheer grit and determination is the best recipe for success!
The Head Line A large fork is a sign of warning to all those who are dreamers in their daily lives. You must work on your ideas, and see them through to completion if they are to succeed. It is also the sign of a person given to stress. Outside the office you are a party animal and night owl.
The Fate Line You have the true Fate Line. Your life will be full of wonderful surprises.
The Health Line Lucky you! Its absence is the sign that you are not hampered by those annoying health problems in life.
I have a photo shoot this weekend. I'm kind of excited about it. It's been a bit since I had one. However, the studio is out in Richmond, VA and I'm not looking forward to that two hour drive. My Sis will more than likely go with me so she will keep me company. She know the Photographer and she said he's really cool. She did some of the girls hair at some of his shoots. I'm a lil mad that I cut my hair because I don't know how the Photographer is going to react to that. It's not a fashion shoot or anything like that just some pic's to bulk up my book and for his site.
Last night I had my boring ass phlebotomy class. I’m not a teacher, but come on she is really dragging out the class time. Our homework is to read the chapter and answer the questions at the end of the chapter. Instead of her going over the homework or giving us a lecture she reads from the book and tries to put it in her own words from time to time. I'm like where are your note's. Ok that’s good if someone forgot to read, but it's not like she is sayingOk this is what you really need to know or be sure to study this... She says she is going to give us a study guide for each test, but It's like I’m self teaching myself for right now because I don't just want the weekend b4 the test to cram for a test. I like to know something in advance. She has no structure. Maybe I’m wrong I don't know. Everyone has their teaching styles, but come on. Also, my friend Aries asked her if she could take our clinical during the same two weeks that I go because she doesn’t have a car and my teacher said that she would think about it if we stop distracting her. I was like WHAT!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm like she is staring in my face the whole time during class. If me and Aries are talking it's about class work or what she saying. My goodness home girl is tripping. I do laugh from time to time (not loudly) because of how Aries is reacting to the teacher. The thing is that Aries gets grossed out over the littlest things. I mean I thought I was prissy and girly nah she has me beat. So she my say stuff like she is getting grossed out like I CAN'T DO THIS!!!... I THINK I PICKED THE WRONG CLASS!!... But she would say it really low and it would make me laugh. I guess she thinks we are talking about something else I don't know, but oh well.
Thursday, February 15, 2007
Today I have decided to let James go too. It is just too much stuff going on in my life right now. I need to be faithful to one person so I'm going to just be with BF#1. I never said his name partly because I couldn't think of a name to give him.... lol... I will just call him my BF because I'm not with anyone else right now. Life is too short to be playing around like this. I might as well see if it is worth it, if not move on. I will give it until the end of the year to see what happens. By that time I would have move into my new house. So it's either me moving in with him or just me moving into a house by myself. I'm really thinking about moving to Baltimore, MD again. The houses are so cheap out there. Although that wouldn't be a good idea because I work in the city. But I don't think it would be a bad idea to have some property out there. Even if i am just renting it out or have my sis staying there. I think It's a good idea. I didn't go out for Valentines Day. My BF stopped by and dropped off some food and I gave him his VDay card. We are going out to eat on Friday so we cane really spend time with each other. I didn't really mind because it is so icy out there right now.
My Sis trimmed my hair a few days ago. Boy oh Boy.... it was more like a cut. She cut about 2 inches off. It was a well needed trim, but I feel so blah now. I'm so use to having longer hair. My hair is still passed my shoulders, but I don't know to do with it now. I'm going to try and get a roller wrap on Saturday or something done to it. I refuse to walk around with a pony tail. I can't tell you when was the last time I wore my hair like that, but I'm not about to start.
Tuesday, February 13, 2007
I did it!!! I broke up with Von!!! It is over!!! Whew.... Sniff... Sniff... I miss him.... I think I miss the drama and the attention. But I’m glad it's over. Last night I asked him last him about spending time with me on Valentine’s Day (I’m not really going to see him, but wanted to show interest like I was) and as soon as I asked him "so what are we doing on V-Day?" my sister started cracking up laughing so loud... So I started laughing because she knew why I was saying it.... He was like umm hmm your sis knows what’s up... So I just ignored him and said that I was going to take off this weekend to spend the night with him and he was acting all like uhhh… weekend… uggghhh… hmm… like he had plans or something so I was like just let me know by Friday what you are going to do and he said ok. He told me that he had gone to the Doctor for his new job yesterday. They told him that he had a UTI, but he said it so low that I was like WTF did you say? I herd him but I wanted to be sure of what I herd. I haven't had sex with him since around Christmas and I just went to the Doctor and I’m fine so I’m like WTF? He got an attitude with me and started being so rude to me he told me that he was going to call me back because I was pissing him off. I said don't bother I’m done with him being rude to me for no reason at all and said BYE and hung up.
The other day one of my ex's decided to send me an email saying -->Hey just wanted to see how you have been... how is your new job? Maybe we could hook up and chat over drinks during happy hour or something... also, tell me what you think of my new pic's... OMG!!!!!!! I was cracking up at work so hard. I'm like judging by that email he must have #1 sent them out to a lot of people #2 he sent pics of himself just incase you for got who the heck he was or he sent pic's because he thinks he looks better than he use too #3 this has worked b4 #4 he thinks I’m going to give in. YEAH RIGHT!!!!!!!!! LMAO...So I sent him an email back saying --> I had a wonderful boyfriend now and I’d doing great. I love my job and no I don't want to meet up with you for drinks… But really wanted to say -->I have a wonderful boyfriend now and I'm doing great. I love my job and no I don't want to meet up with your bitch ass for drinks. GO ASK THAT BITCH THAT YOU WAS CHEATING ON ME WITH TO GO OUT FOR DRINKS. I haven't forgotten that BS you put me through and I hope that you are having an awful life... and as for what I think of the pic's 3 words short yellow bus. But I didn't say that. Well I did say the "and as for what I think of the pick’s 3 words... short yellow bus" too. So he sends me another email back saying -->I'm happy for you, you are a good woman and you deserve great thing kiss kiss ./.<--- ASS HOLE...Anyway, I'm glad he is out of my life.
On Friday, I went to Love with my sister. I had an OK time. We didn't really stay that long. We ended up leaving at 12:30am. I introduced her to a few people that I knew and had two drinks. That was bout it. When we were leaving the bouncer dude that that I normally talk to on our way out was handing out a new HIP HOP WEEKLY magazine. It was from the makers of the Source. I love all of those gossip magazines and it was about time that they came out with one that was for the hip hop community. I have never been a big fan of the Vibe, Source, or Sister to Sister so I'm happy to see a newbie that I actually can enjoy reading. However, for a small ass magazine it was priced at $3.49 or something like that. NO THANKS. Call me cheap, but if it was $1.99 I would see myself buying form time to time.
On Saturday, I was sick as a dog. I came on and was in the bed all day long. I haven't had cramps in a long time, but man oh man I was in a lot of pain. I really wonder why? I think it may have had something to do with going to the Dr. the day before and getting a pap done. I don't know, but I was in so much pain. My ass couldn't find my Aleve's so I took two sleeping pills and was out, but I still was in pain. I pretty much slept the day away.
On Sunday, I went up to Catholic University and got on the computer for a bit. My sis needed to print some stuff out so I took her up there. Then I went to Costco and got some gas for the week. After that I went to Aries house and chilled over there for a bit. We were suppose to be reading chapter 2 for our Phlebotomy class, but we ended up looking at myspace for the rest of the night.
Whats all the hoopla over Tyler Perry's and Eddie Murphy's movie coming out at the same time? So what they have two Big Black Drag Queens in it and that they are coming out around the same time. Don't most Black movies come out around the same time anyway? That's not a Bad Thing. Most people are going to see both movies anyway so dose it really matter when they come out. I personally probably wont see Tyler Perry's movie. I like his movies, but this one reminds me of too much of Von's life. He has two daughters too around that age and I don't want to get annoyedwatching it. His kids are OK. They are cool and well behaved, but I'm not into being someones stepmother. As for the Eddie Murphy movie. I may go see it. It looks Funny, but I can already tell that it's going to be filled with a bunch of BBWStereotypes. I can't say that I would watch both on the day that each comes out, but I may check them out on the weekends.
I start my Phlebotomy Class today. I was looking forward to it until last night. I started thinking man I’m going to be so sleepy at work. The class is from 5-9:30 at night until April 19th. It's only two nights a week so I hope to be able to make up my shuteye on Saturday, because Friday is my party night. I saw James last night. We watched Prison Break. Although, that is not my show it wasn’t too bad. However, I’m so mad that I am going to miss HOUSE tonight.
On Friday I did end up going to Fuzion. My friend Cherry ended up backing out on me. Which was cool. I didn't really like my outfit for LOVE anyway. So I changed my cloths and met up with Aries around 10:30pm. She came outside the club drunk as a skunk to meet us. I had on a black button down short sleeve shirt, jeans, a black belt they I wore high on my waist and my animal print peep toe shoes. The bouncer dude was talking about me, because I had a peep toe shoes on. Sure that was fine and dandy until he noticed that I didn't have my nails done. All I was thinking when I put them on was "oh nobody is going to be looking at my feet"... lol... They where cool thou. The dude was like “I’m going to let you get away with that, because you’re fine and have pretty feet"... it was funny... We still didn't get in. The main bouncer dude that looks like Rubin Studders always lets me in for free wouldn't let me in. He was like "15 bucks". His ass was crazy. I never paid to get into a club and wasn't about to either. He said "if you would have gotten here earlier then it would have been cool, but it's after 9:30pm". So I was like bump that and we left. After that I ended up dropping my Sister off and spending the night with James.
On Satuday I did a lot of running around. I took my brother and my sis to Costco to buy some groceries. My sis ate my entire bag of chicken breast so she bought me a bag to replace it. I bought a big ass bag of Yim Yim Dumplings from Costco. OMG they are so good. I told myself that I wasn't going to eat anything that has High Fructose Corn Syrup or Trans Fat in it anymore. I need to be healthier. So basically if I don't make it then I won’t eat it. After that I was suppose to see Von, but he "BS'ed" me. I told him that if he didn't call me back b4 8 then I was just going to go to the movies. He called me at 8:16, but I didn’t get the phone. I was half asleep at that point anyway. I fell asleep around that time and was out for the count. Maybe my glass of wine with my dinner brought that on.
On Sunday I went to the Positive Black Men’s Coalition Supper Bowl Party at the Hyatt in VA. It was boring as heck. #1 I don't like Football, #2 they didn't have free food, and #3 it was cold and shit in there. Anyway, I didn't really dress up. I was really casual. Most folks where dressed like they where going to the club, but I wasn't interested in meeting anyone. I just wanted to go to go. Hey it was free. After the Game was over a lot of people where partying and mingling. Aries wanted to stay to meet some folks, but I was like Nah I got to go to work in morn and it was past 10:30. My butt is normally in the bed by 8-9pm so I was pretty sleepy. No partying for me. She was a lil upset, but oh well. I wasn't going to give up my beauty sleep for no one.
Radom Thought: I forgot my work ID the other day. I was half way to work and I forgot the darn thing in the house. This was the first time I ever forgot it so I was so mad. The thing is that I was making good timing by driving thru Rock Creek Park in the morning. It only takes me 30mins to get to work now. So I could have turned around, but I really didn't want to stay late. So I went thru the visitor’s entrance. I thought it was going to take 15min for me to get thru the security check point, but it didn't. Also, I thought that since I had a Gov parking pass that it would be a lot faster. WRONG!!! They were treating me like I was a Visitor. Needless to say I still got to work later than what I wanted to.
On Monday I went out to dinner with BF#1. We went to my favorite restaurant PF Chang's. I ordered Mongolian Beef and brown rice. I don't normally eat meat, but I love Mongolian Beef. I wonder if you can make Mongolian chicken. Hmmm, I got to find that out. As much as I love cheese wontons the wontons at PF's are not that good. I think I will just stick to the carry out ones out in Largo. We had a nice time. I actually started thinking about getting married and having a cute lil kid with him again. I'm just waiting for him to ask me the big question and then I will drop everyone else out of the picture. However, if someone else beats him to it and they are really the love of my life then bump it... too late. I feel like we are an old married couple. Like the honeymoon is over. We have been dealing with each other for so long (on and off for 7 years, but mostly off) and I feel just too comfortable with him. Like he is my back up plan incase I don't meet my special someone. Who knows maybe he is my special someone. He says he is going to papoose to me soon, but we shall see.
Throughout the week, Von has been asking to see me and I pretty much have been bs'n him. I'm not really in the mood to see him. Well let me take that back. I don't mind seeing him, but I don't want to be intimate with him. I talked to him last night and he is really getting frustrated with the fact that it has been a month and a half since we had sex. He said "oh you don't want to be with me anymore?...I can tell...I'm like Ok?... whatever.... It was funny, my Sis was cracking up she was like "he is such a lil bitch"... He wanted to see me today (on Friday) and I was like nah I got something to do, (I'm going to LOVE tonight or Fuzion <-- the old Juste Lounge, but I didn’t tell him that) but I can see him "after work” on Saturday night. He acted like it wasn’t a good day for him. But oh well I tried. Later he really got mad because I asked him how many people where going to be in his house. He was like what you think you are better than me?... What you think my family is too ghetto for you to be around? I'm like no I was just asking a general question. But for real he has a lot of trafic going in and out of his house and he dosen't really have a nice house. I'm scared of him when he is talking that dumb shit. I don't want to be in the trunk of my car bucket naked. He is too old to be acting like that. He is 35 and he acts more like 15. Speaking of being found dead in your car nude. This past weekend Aries church friend was found dead in her car exactly like that. On Monday Aries called me and told me that one of her coworkers called her and asked he if I was missing because they saw this girl on there that looked just like me and thought that was me. I was like WOW. First I thought that it was a joke and that she was trying to be funny. But she was serious. So I was all on the NBC 4 and Fox 5 web site looking for this girl that they where talking about here is the story ---> Sintia Mesa
We don't have the same name, the same car, and I really don't think we look alike. However, so many people where calling me and asking if I was ok, because it made them think about me. I'm like WOW. Should I be scared? My coworker K3 was like he thought about me this weekend. I was like “oh no don't tell me it's about this story again?” Surenuff it was. He said that I need to be careful about who hang out with and stuff like that and because of my life style. ho wi like for guys to take me out and stuff. But I'm not really meeting people and going out with guys anymore. I have known Von since May of last year and James since August. I know you never really know people, but I don't plan on dating or meeting anymore new guys. Aries think that I should stop talking to Von. She thinks that I don't need him in my life. I mean he hasn't really done anything to me, but he is just too jealous. I don't want to be doused with gas and set on fire if he found out that I was cheating on him. He did make this threat to me one time. It was around Xmas last year and he had just found out that his cousin’s girlfriend was cheating on him. He goes on to say "if I ever found out that you where cheating on me I would get someone to beat you up every day... you can’t play with peoples emotions". I was really shocked that he would say something like that. I asked him was he serious? He said yea. He has never put his hands on me and has never been violent to me. But that lil statement made me really think about just what kind of person am I dealing with?
